Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Backup Your Blog

A Simply Klassic Home     posted about a fellow blogger losing her blog and the importance of backing it up. I am doing it right now. Although, I don't blog alot I would hate to lose my posts.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Do you always have to be the bigger person? Part 2

Well the answer is Yes. I called. I knew I would not have peace until I did. The phone call did not go as expected. It was completely different. Instead of getting the accusations of I am doing something wrong, it was basically just a miss you phone call. I miss you calling and checking on me. I miss you coming by to see me. She also misses the Diva, but it was nice to say that she missed me also. I guess I never realized that I was also important in her life and that our relationship was not just based on the fact that I was the Mom to one of her grandchildren. I am sure she knows the issues that I have with Diva's father, but I guess that should not keep us from speaking. We made plans for Diva to see her over spring break in March. We are going to meet somewhere halfway so it's not just me doing all of the driving.

Anyhoo, I am glad I called.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Cupid Lives!

My friends know that I always post a picture of cupid getting shot in the back every year for Valentine's Day.  It's my thing. This year can't do. I have been talking to an ex the past couple of months  and we went out tonight. Oh my gosh I forgot how great it was to be with someone that you can talk, talk and talk to and never run out of things to say. If I didn't have to go pick up Diva from the babysitter, we would still be talking. I am glad though he lives an hour away and it had started to sleet in his part of town. He is now home all safe at home.

I can't believe the stuff he remembered about me and the stuff I remembered about him. I guess we were so young and foolish at the time. I am so glad to have my friend back in my life.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Do you always have to be the bigger person?

Anyone who knows me, knows that the Diva is the center of my world. Seriously, I put her right up there with oxygen. So it burns my ass to no end that her Father  does not care about her or maybe he does in his own way, but IMO you spend time with people you care about. So here I have this absolutely wonderful little girl and BTW not just my opinion, who has a Father who only wants to see her if he thinks he can have sex with me as a reward for playing Daddy. So yep you guessed it, he doesn't see her.  He has not seen her since May of 2011 (guilty conscious)  We have not talked since November about the insurance card he was suppose to put in the mail in October, yeah it wasn't pretty. Anyhoo...Diva's paternal grandmother gives me a call and wants me to call her. We have not talked nor has she seen her grandchild in 2 yrs. We didn't have any words or anything but after 8 yrs of ALWAYS being the one to call and ask her if she wanted to see her grandchild and the one ALWAYS taking her grandchild to see her, it just stop being important to me. So I stopped calling and I guess she has realized  after 2 yrs she hasn't talked to the Diva.  Who she thinks is this wonderful little girl or so she said the last time we talked to her. So I get a call from her and she tells me to call her that evening when I got home. My first thought was Fuck you old lady and then I felt bad because I like her, she just happened to raise an asshole of a son who thinks he does nothing wrong and she co-signs on it. She always has a ton of excuses as to why Bubba is not to blame, I guess everyone else is wrong. So I asked on my mommy board should I call and got mixed replies some said No and others said to be the bigger person. So I asked a co-worker I adore and she said why not call and just get it over with, but my questions is Why? Why do I? They walked away from us, not vice versa.
My parents MUST talk to the Diva every single week and MUST see her every month or every other month. This is what grandparents are suppose to want to do, not ignore unless you call. So Friday, I decided well if she calls again I will talk to her. The heffa ( I call everyone heffa) has called twice since then. She just left another message. UGGGHHH I hate this.  I still haven't decided what to do.